i never could resist these quizzes.
You are a Spiritualist. Your magic flows from the
primal forces of the cosmos. You could be a
gentle Healer, a miraculous Prophet or a
spirit-summoning War-mage with the strong link
your soul provides to the realms beyond
reality. You have preternatural abilities,
intutively sensing the personality of people
you meet and discerning events yet to happen.
You enhance your aura with meditative pursuits.
You are a good judge of character but your
idealism or morality can confuse others.
Which Magical Order Are You In?
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it's amazing how He works. i followed my mum to a Catholic bookshop to get confirmation gifts for two of my juniors and my godsister, and (as usual) i drifted towards the book section. and the only book on the top shelf was a series of "Prove It!" by Amy Welborn. and the one that caught my eye? "Prove It! - Church"
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it's old news tt i've been having a crisis of the faith, sth which started long before ppl actually started questioning my Catholic beliefs. well, no. it started when my uncle asked me why I believed. i was 10. and he was my UNCLE. we're a pretty strong Catholic family, so that shook me up. a lot. but it got me thinking, which is a good thing. i thought i found the answers...until i went to jc, and was confronted wif it all over again, not the least by that particular classmate, let's just call her Moe. anyway she handed me this pamphlet...written specifically to convince Catholics they're wrong. Well Moe, it didn't work. Sure it sowed the seeds of doubt, but those are all gone now.
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for my non-Catholic, christian friends - please take this in the right light. i know you understand.
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so many of my Catholic friends are facing the same thing as i did...the thing is, we know we believe in the true faith. the prob is, we don't know how to answer the people who are convinced we dont. root of problem there is probably our fault - ttz for not paying attention during Bible studies. but im beginning to find the answers - and am drawing close to Him again.
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am toying wif the idea of blogging what i learnt. one question at a time, maybe once a week. still toying wif it though.
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just came back from an nkf champ alumni meeting...as usual i come back motivated and determined to do well. hope this one lasts. *grinz*
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econs preliminary round is over. think we did pretty well...don't know if i really wanna get into the finals though. a lot of work and the stress is pretty high.
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Come live in me
All my life
Take over
Come breathe in me
I will rise
On Eagle's Wings
yes, i know it's a weekday, but i gotta tell SOMEONE.
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disturbed. really. led WOW yesterday wif teresa...donno...think we din do too well at all. but ttz not the point...after tt i went for class...and had a pretty heated discussion wif one of my classmates...will not mention names. anyway she believes catholics arent christians. which, fundamentally, is ridiculous. don't we all believe in Christ? but i've never seen anyone so convinced she's right...it's like she thinks we are the anti-Christ or sth...like the spawn of the devil etc. very very very disturbed. of course one or two of the others backed me up, but nobody really wanted to get involved...i ended up leaving class...before the teacher came. hrm.
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had econs symposium meeting after that. still havnt confirmed a script and it's on sat! joy. haha.
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EMDD...was alright i guess. my sis did great :p no, im not biased. but the show on the whole wasnt as...well, polished as it used to be. met the baka fam...well 3 of them, conspicuous absences i guess. even my mum noticed. but i guess it happens to everybody, sooner or later. i just hope it nv happens to my other (yes i know it's a small, tiny, 3 person grp, but hey it's a grp) grp of real frenz. i missed u toot...hehe. kinda disappointed jannie couldnt make it...but then toot decided to sit wif me so tt was fun *grinz* jess, cher, charm...it's been a long time...and it's scary...i dont feel close to them anymore. sigh.
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i can't wait to move on, out of TJ and (hopefully) into NUS. not cuz i don't like TJ, i do. but i made a lot of mistakes there...academic wise, friend wise, relationship wise, even combi wise. haha. sure i face up to them, and it looks like i (kind of) got it together. but i don't and it hurts like hell. frustrating too, when i imagine what it could have been like...i mean i could have done LIT but i was too stubborn darnit. in NUS, well, it's a new start. like TJ was and promised to be, but i goofed up. stupid me. haha.
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why am i home at 1230 nn? i couldnt wake up. headache, backache, stomach ache (kinda worried abt tt. feels like the stomach aches i had the last time i was admitted.) haha. sleeping at 2am everyday does nothing for my conciousness. mrs lim says those who ace sleep at 1am everyday. well, im gonna prove her wrong. feeling neglected as i usually do when i dont go school. nobody seems to notice unless therez something i was supposed to do. oh well.
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life rockz. honest. i love the rain. :)
today's a weekday. oops. *grinz*
a hand to hold
a touch to share
something hurts
it's deep inside
i dont know,
maybe it's pride
a nagging feeling of something gone wrong
somewhere someone's singing a song
of loneliness sadness pain and despair
wondering if anyone would ever care
if i survived this.
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im an emcee for college day! whoopee! and econs symposium is progressing, not as fast as i would like, but progressing anyway.
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somehow i feel academically im on an upswing. like the depression is over. grades wise anyway.
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teddy has a 7-up bottle in his mouth. he looks like a drunk hahaha
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save the people
bring life to Man
save the people
heal our land
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g'nite. *hugz*.