2 weeks to the hols
1 week to camp
3 days to the maths test
2 days to the chem test
1 day to school. darnit.

yup it's one of those days. wake up feeling u need a year to catch up. and year not filled with other stuff. just a year. or at least someone to lean on every now and then. sigh.

camp. camp camp camp argh. mr XX is right the proposals were very brief. but it's come to a point where the is no use pushing for more. maybe it's my fault...it probably is, seeing i din really set the standards from the start. but you would think since it's essentially THEIR camp they would put in more effort. but no. so i'll do them again. myself.

i realise ppl actually read this. amazing. so i wont say more.

there's a camp coming up in june...church camp. it's funny, i dont feel like going. and to think i used to jump at every chance. maybe it's cuz i figured i don't need a camp to get closer...also cuz my church camps usually end up to be major politicking ground for the various grps. and also cuz of who will be there. which is really, really sad. there is nothing wrong with the Catholic Church. it's just, well people have got to grow up a little...these ppl go to camps with the purpose of having fun. and instead of trying to make the youth realise they go to these camps to grow closer to Him, the adults encourage it. i mean, what kind of selling line is "don't worry, there wont be too much praying and stuff...you guys will have fun!" no wonder those really serious about their faith are jaded...and u know how ironic that is? the strongest Catholic kids i know are the ones who sometimes say "you know, i wonder what the Protestant churches are like. My Protestant friends seem so much closer to Him." ok, i say that too. the thing is, we'll never leave the Catholic Church. but there's almost no one we can go to for advice...spiritual advice...at least in my church. maybe it's cuz we're not close to the priests. or im not. parents aren't really comfortable about discussing this kinda thing. heck they aren't even comfortable about us discussing it with anyone. no wonder kids leave the Church. so it's like this constant battle thing. The people i talk to about my faith...aren't Catholics. and aside from my belief in the true Catholic Church...for no other reason than Faith, there is nothing to hold me back frm leaving. besides my parents. which is a big besides. but still. Faith is there though...and i hope it stays long enough for me to find a place...or maybe...create...a place...

create. hrm.

was talking to a couple of my girl frenz yesterday...catching up on stuff...and realised most of us are either unattached or recently broke up. and was brainstorming reasons why..haha...other than the usual guys suck thing (which i believe is a gross generalization, so don't take offence. yes, you.) we realised itz cuz of the really high standards we expect. maybe it's cuz we were in a convent for 10 yrs...so we have pretty untainted views about how guys should act, both around and not around girls. hrm. but when it came to exactly what the high standards were, we weren't sure. except that if we ever settle down wif someone...he'll have to be our bestest friend. which was funny, cuz many of us had guy best frenz...and when we concluded that...we were like...oh NO....hahahahha

mothers' day today. made sth for my mum...she was pretty happy haha.

what am i doing online. still gotta write the proposals. and finish my hw. and study for the tests. argh. ok. byebye.