I woke up today with an urge to blog then i came downstairs and forgot why i wanted to blog in the first place. and that, my friends, is Life. not life with a small 'l'. Life. with a big 'L'. yeah azzah i think you're right. i AM psycho. and proud of it. *grinz* not like today was an eventful day you know. remember that jane eyre essay i talked about yesterday? im on the 2nd last paragraph. at least, i hope so. not a very productive weekend huh. been thinking a lot though. my daydreaming capacity has increased tremendously. at least i dont feel too guilty. how do you deal with Death? you cry a little...then you accept it. like a sunset you will never see again. you'll see another sunset - the same sun, but it'll set over and over again, and it'll never be like the last one. and everytime you see a sunset, you'll remember the last one, and maybe cry a little again. but each time, you remember less of the sadness and more of the beauty. and there will be a time when the sun sets, and though you still feel sad, you're happy too. because you had the privelege of seeing the sun. A friend died today. car crash. dont really know the details. and dont really remember much of him. he was a family friend...and i must have known him growing up, cuz he's not much older than i am. and he remembered me at the last gathering we had. Life has it's ways of reminding you of the thread that binds. and that can snap. anytime, anyone, anywhere. the thousands of lives that are entwined around each other...so that somehow everybody is connected...have seen and loved the same things, sometimes even the same people. a heightened sense of awareness. that no matter what our purposes are, no matter what we believe in, our lives will come to an end. and Death has no respect for age. or what we were gonna do tomorrow. or who we were in love with, but were too afraid to tell. or even who we were in love with, and was gonna tell. But i believe that Death does not end all. that it was conquered 2 million years ago, on a cross in Calvary. and one day we'll meet again. in perfect love. which is all anyone can ask for. so cry your tears. tears were made to fall. but wipe them away, when you look up and realise that there's more to smile at, to laugh and to love. Life will go on, and love will lead you on. And when your turn comes, look into the eyes of your Maker, and say truly, i have lived my life. i have Lived my Life. and i am content to be with Love in You. New week, new rules. no weekday bloggings. cya friday :p