Which is sucky, cuz it's Christmas Eve. And nobody's supposed to be mad on Christmas Eve. My mum's mad cuz I'm supposed to help her with marketing but I woke up late. My sis is mad cuz I took too long in the bathroom. And several other ppl are mad for various reasons. And are thus ignoring my msgs. You know, staying mad never helps ANYONE. But hey, who ever really listens to me? *shrugz* I suppose it's my fault too anyway.
This was supposed to be a happy post. So it will be. At least this part of it. Last night, I had the best couple of hours I've had in the longest time. Christmas party at Trevor's place with Lincoln. I love you guys, you know? Well, most of the time anyway. FYI, I am still anti-relationship. Things said during truth or dares shouldnt be resurrected. *grinz* I havn't felt so comfortable around a group of ppl for a long time. As in, comfortable, dont need to be someone they think I am, dont need to be the big sister (being the younger sister is generally a lot easier) , dont need to constantly defend myself against immature jibes, in jest or no (sometimes it's hard to tell), dont need to do anything but be there kind of comfortable. I could get used to this.
Unfortunately, I cant. School starts in less than 2 weeks (argh HOMEWORK), as does piano (sob...portfolio), exams (maths test 2nd week...noooooooooo), and the general grind towards A levels.
Which makes now a good time as any to set down my aims. Just so I don't change them after a particularly horrible encounter with people who say I've already lost:
1. Study at least 2 hrs a day. (Yes, I know. But if I've gotta be a mugger to get what I want, a mugger I will be.)
2. Ace all tests. (Ditto above.)
3. JCTs: ABB, Merit
4. Prelims: AAB, Distinction (It's far away enough to start trying)
5. A Levels: AAA, Distinction
So that eventually, when I get my results back...
PSC Overseas-Merit Scholarship. I wanna get away. Be alone. Independent. I love this country, and I'll definitely come back. For good. I just need to breathe. 4 years of freedom and the REAL ability to make choices are within my reach. No matter what people say about 3-yr JC students. If meritocracy is a reality, my grades will get me the interview. And I will get me my scholarship. Watch me.
And to 2 of the ppl who are currently ignoring me, thank you for using the knowledge that you, of all people, have the ability to break me. Once again, you've taught me a lesson in trust. Never do it.
| Your Element Is Air |
 And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life.You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person.With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that! |
| You Are a Dreaming Soul |
 You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul |
Haha. As can be seen, I'm bored. Sigh.