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Saturday, July 31, 2004

Sometimes, you just know.

the way i know i made the right choice in changing combi. im gonna stop myself before i wax lyrical about 3304 - suffice to say they rock. lol. and it isnt just my classmates either - i really really enjoy lit. and econs (tt's normal), even maths. haha.
the lit skit thing on thursday was a blast too. havnt done something like tt in what...2 yrs? yeah. nv realised how much i missed it. drama. hopefully there'll be more opportunities wif e drama elective. was very happy when dhana jem and ck showed up. very pleasantly surprised. *grinz*
sensing some changing dynamics with certain friends. i suppose it's inevitable...we do have to move on, afterall. and i was nv one for holding on to what wants to fly away. maybe i let go too quickly. *shrugs* maybe tt's my fundamental problem with deep relationships...im incapable of the dedicated commitment required to really develop it. one has to be incessantly persistant, and a great deal stubborn(er) than i am to be close to me. i suppose that has it's benefits.
gothic is disturbing. really. i mean, child sacrifice, fiends, spirits (usually evil), screwed up families, incest, devil-worship, vampyres, draculas, witches, death dying blood gore - urgh. the trains of thought it conjures up is interesting to say the least, though. faced with the darkest of human nature, what DOES one do?
I certainly havnt figured it out yet. in the meantime, think i should get back to integration and market failure. and give lit a break. haha. adios amigos!




| Written at 4:25 PM |
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Sunday, July 25, 2004

Dawn.

just a couple of updates:
1. changed my blogskin. like this one...looks cleaner, fresher.
2. changed my subject combination. doing lit, econs, maths. which
effectively means im back in yr1, and thus
3. changed class. now in 3304. it rocks. *grinz*

let's try to pre-empt a few reactions.
1. "you WHAT?"
Ans: i changed class. thus going back to yr1. yes, im aware that it means i'll have an extra year in tj. and that no matter what the politically correct answer is, it might have a detrimental effect on my hopes of a scholarship. but hey. i've made up my mind. chose the wrong combi last yr, making up for it this yr.
2.

hrm. there IS no '2'. that's primarily been the reaction. save for those who know me better than i thought they did. haha.

so, as it stands now. lit rocks. no 'i should have' or 'should not have'. which, really, is my philosophy in life. no regrets. made a mistake? rectify it, if you can. i could, so i did. people involved were really very understanding. threw me off balance for a while. couldnt be happier. :)

hrm. in the process of changing my template i have lost several links. hehe. like jess' blog. oops. could u send it to me again plz? eternally grateful. *winkz*

will try to establish a tagboard. my typing skills have detoriated. i had to type 'tagboard' 3 times to get it right. sheesh. 'somebody for someone' by the corrs is playing in my head right now. nice song. gets irritating when you cant turn it off though.

my collection of classics is being put to good use. haha. i havn't read tess of d'Ubervilles, jane eyre, the bloody chamber or dracula since i was in primary school. ha. now i have an excuse to be a bookworm again hurrah! i realise now what disturbed me as a 12 yr old still disturbs me. hrm. so much for growing out of monster in the cupboard fears. i cant read MR james stories without sprinting up the stairs after turning off the hall lights. or jumping into bed in a single leap after turning off my bedroom light. haha im such a chicken :p

i wanna learn drums. (yes, i know i've said this countless times. but i really do!) and the saxaphone. and french. and hindi. tt'll be cool, don't you think?

when thoughts and words they don't combine
your heart you feel you've left behind
don't fret i know just how you feel
it's as though your happiness fate wishes to steal
but if in this sad state you yourself find
think not that i am to you blind
my friend my arm is ever near

to guide you from that which you fear
just promise me that you'll be true
to friendship and what friendship holds due
for a slip of the tongue may be all it takes
to deign that both our hearts must break
at the parting of friends
who almost more than friends became
but for the weakness of one, and lack of strength of the other
and thus as friends we must remain

.:ethereal:.

with that, i bid you g'nite. adieu!



| Written at 9:16 PM |
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age: 18 (finally *grinz*)
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