::I'm living in a Paradise::
long time no see :) shouldnt be blogging, but hey the ppl who i normally rave to are currently uncontactable. (that's 3 of you). lol. anyway.
it's been a long 2 weeks. sc camp is over, exco elections are over. zi rui is promising. captains intro tomorrow...it's almost all over. mixed feelings...tired and relieved...but a little sad to let it go. and scared too. what if i lose them all? (ok. i'll stop whining.)
super duper tired. not thinking straight. fell asleep during econs and got scolding. dumortier was in a bad mood today i think. fell asleep during gp and couldnt finish the essay. ms tan is sweet. at least she notices when im tired. haha. felt sick after maths lecture so din go for maths tutorial. bet i'll get scolding tomorrow. or maybe he din even notice. (i wish. he only notices when i do something wrong.)
feeling sensitive again. easily hurt. bullied. unloved un-needed yadayada you know what i mean. hm. don't think un-needed is a word. oh wellz. stormed out of the council rm cuz 'zid jing and jem were teasing me. like they always do. but this time...oh wellz. anyway i figured i'll stop caring about what my class thinks (or does not think, they dont notice anyway). it's emotionally exhausting.
it's week 8. hc polling starts tomorrow and i juz realised we havnt done anything. ARGH. im a failure. a total failure. and the best part is everybody agrees. i suppose moral support can't go both ways.
i hope zi rui does better than i did. it shouldn't be too hard, i din do too well. disappointing. disappointed. what happened to all those dreams? their wings collapsed under them. you know, along with other stuff.
this is going to be a long blog. :D i warned you.
i will not, i repeat WILL NOT cry during investiture. i wont. cuz i dont cry. there. ok i do (twice in the last 4 months, for completely different reasons). but i wont.
suddenly i cant think anymore. maybe it's the guilt from not having finished the essay yet. and tutorials 55 to 60. and all my organic chem tutorials. and econs tys. and case studies and drq. and the revision papers. AND the jct practice papers.
yeah i think that's it. i need a hug. oh well.
life rockz. just give me some time to prove it. :p
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Hands
by Jewel
If I could tell the world just one thing,
It would be that we're all ok
And not to worry because worry is wasteful
and useless in times like these
I will not be made useless
I wont be idled with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
for light does the darkness most fear
My hands are small I know
but they're not yours they are my own
but they're not yours they are my own
and I am never broken
Poverty stole your golden shoes
but it didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
but i knew it wasn't ever after
We will fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
cause when there's a man who has no voice
there ours shall go singing
In the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees and I will pray
I will get down on my knees and I will pray
I will get down on my knees and I will pray
My hands are small I know but they're not yours they are my own
And I am never broken
We are never broken
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's mind
God's hands
God's heart
We are God's hands
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